I find it very difficult to make decisions. I think my brain is overly rational. It can be sympathetic to almost any side of a story. I feel like everything in my life is a moral gray area and nothing is certain. It kinda sucks. I'm not sure of anything. I'm not sure that I will go to class tomorrow, I'm not sure I'll graduate, I'm not sure I'll be alive tomorrow, I'm not sure the world will be here tomorrow. And so this means I never really trust.

On one side it seems like apathy. Like I'm just too apathetic to care about anything. But instead I can't commit to anything. Because I don't want to look like a fool when something unexpected happen. Ironically, the only thing I am sure of is the fact that I exist.