Ratatat

I think this is my favorite band right now. They have such fucking amazing beats. Every song is an adventure and you can just there and imagine anything you want while listening. They also have a few Remix albums with artists like ludacris, jay-z and notorious b.i.g. Its all really good shit and I highly recommend.

I find it very difficult to make decisions. I think my brain is overly rational. It can be sympathetic to almost any side of a story. I feel like everything in my life is a moral gray area and nothing is certain. It kinda sucks. I'm not sure of anything. I'm not sure that I will go to class tomorrow, I'm not sure I'll graduate, I'm not sure I'll be alive tomorrow, I'm not sure the world will be here tomorrow. And so this means I never really trust.

On one side it seems like apathy. Like I'm just too apathetic to care about anything. But instead I can't commit to anything. Because I don't want to look like a fool when something unexpected happen. Ironically, the only thing I am sure of is the fact that I exist.

I won't you so bad my bones shake

It's scary to realize what you can get away with. I try to pretend that all these rules we have to obey have a scary enforcer who will give me a dissapointed look if I don't follow them. Because its quite sad to realize that if you do everything wrong, nobody will care.

I want to alternate doing yoga and swimming. This P90x Yoga is hard. I did half the video on Thursday and was soo sore. I think I might try the other half tonight. I'm on duty so I can't leave anyway.

Yesterday I found two giant fucking snowballs in the entrance to Wilmot N. I was like 'wtfbbq!'. So I called another don and we rolled them out. It's like someone wanted to make a snowman, but ran out of time so stored the parts inside, hoping he could just pick up where he left off later. Sorry dude, for removing your snowballs. They were melting anyway.